I have been feeling so tired lately. Working 5×12 hours shifts a week is taking its toll on my body. I wake up and go to work. I came back and crash in bed after dinner. I wake up 1-2 hours and take a hot shower and watch some TV and go to bed. Alarm goes off at 4:50am and I’m at work at 6am. The cycle begins the next day. Tomorrow will be my 3rd straight day shift and then it’s another 3 more night shifts. I feel that there is more out there then work. I try to look for a better job, but I’m not getting anywhere.
Valentines Day is fast coming up. Not suprisingly nothing much except for work that night for me. Why is everyone moving on, well I can’t seen to move up? No news in this department. Why is it so hard for me though?
My body is telling me that it is not taking to kindly to what I go through at work each day. I think it’s time for a change. Each day I go to work and come home, it makes me feel like packing my bags and heading off to the UK to work and travel for a year. Can I take that plunge? It would mean that I won’ t my savings anymore and I’ll be living pretty much off my suitcase for a year. But the excitment of travelling without any worries is a good feeling. Can I pull this off or do I stay in Melbourne? Only time will tell.
Been ages since I last blogged! Christmas and New Years has come and gone. Wonder what 2007 has installed for me? Work wise, it’s driving me insane. Everyone wants to leave and it is creating an unstable environment where management is trying to rebuild the team. However, the team feels that we are being taken for granted with no incentives, except that we are giving more and more work to do. Working 60 hours a week for the past 2 months is not fun. I feel more tired as the weeks go by. Trying to find a better job so I can leave, but up til now, it’s all false promises and lots of waiting from recruitment agents.
On other news, I am still in contact with that someone. Nothing really much has progressed since my last blog entry. Gave a Christmas present, but think she was embarrased that I got her something. Maybe she was touched that someone would do that. Who knows, but don’t you hate it that it always you that has to initiate things… something which I’m pretty bad at doing. Move on as one friend tells me to do, or hang around. This also includes my work as well.
As each dinner gathering I go to with my high school friends, the more I feel as though I haven’t grown up yet. Out of all the friends I grew up with in high school, I’m the only one who hasn’t grown up… still single, still thinks about modding my car, while my friends are getting engaged, married and having kids. All I have been doing for the past year and a half is work, work and more work. It’s time for a change before I burn out.
Had dinner with one of my close friends. Had a good chat during dinner with him and my sister. I realise that he is probably one the only friends which I know from childhood and that both our families know each other quite well. Life is going quite well with him at the moment.
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Dug up enough courage to ring that someone tonight. I don’t why I get so nervous to dial up that number. Wanted to ask that someone to meet up on Friday. Said she already had plans. I should have set another day instead, but instead just chatted and then said that it’s getting late and since she had an early start she should get some sleep. Why is it so hard for me to act on things and why does things take so long to happen for me while my friends find it so easy. I’m off to my holidays on Sunday. Can’t wait, but I wish I could still have met up with that someone before I leave for my hols. Maybe I should just be patient. I don’t want to give the impression that I’m some creepy guys that stalks people. I’ll just wait… waiting can be so frustrating. Wish I could be more confident instead of being tongue tied whenever I call.
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Im off to bed. Back at work tomorrow for another 12 hours. Don’t know how long I can do this for. Got a job that I’m going to apply for tomorrow. Really don’t know where I’m heading at the moment. The holiday can’t come soon enough. I’m back to whinging again hehehe 
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It’s nice to have a day off from work! Spent my day off sleeping in and cleaning up the house. I don’t know why, but I got this schedule on my days off, where I have to at least vacuum the house and clean the bathroom and toilet. Mopping the floors only if I have time. I think I’m either a padanick person, or just one of those weirdo neat freaks!
I finally had the chance to play some basketball at the basketball court in the park near my place. It was so fun to be able to shoot hoops without a care in the world. There wasn’t any other children there, so it was nice. Better than last time I went where the court and the park was filled up with people and kids playing there. I had to bounce my way back home as there wasn’t any room in the basketball court. Also didn’t want to push my way in, as I didn’t want to be remembered as the “short grumpy asian bully” :P. I remember back in high school, where I would read basketball magazines and play basketball after school. Sometimes I wish I back in high school again.
Back to work again tomorrow. Got a few things on my mind at the moment. Don’t know if that’s a good thing or not. I’m trying not to think to deep into things. Will see how everything pans out. I really feel like the Ted character in How I met your mother at the moment… can really relate to that show lately. Oh yeah, have been watching Tru Calling - gotta love that show! 
Had a nice weekend. Finally got my car back after a week. The mods done to the car is awesome. Just a pity I haven’t had a proper chance to test it out and have a proper play with the car! 
Spent Saturday feeling tired after coming back home from night shift at work. Didn’t really do much except for bumming around the house and washing the car. Had a reasonably early night.
Went to church this morning. Still got stuff in regards to church to ponder about. Sometimes I find it hard to know if the decisions I make is the right one. Why is it hard for me to get a sign to know what decision to make?
Went out for dinner on Sunday night with someone. It’s taken this long to ask her out for dinner. Had a great time where the conversation flowed and I didn’t make a total fool of myself. Wish the night didn’t end so quick. But got a early shift in the morning, so need some sleep! Don’t know where this is all heading. But at least it’s nice to make a friend, someone I can click with! I actually feel like the Ted character in How I Met Your Mother. I can really relate to the character at the moment LOL!
Going to bed. Doing an extra shift in the morning. Wish I didn’t now. But at least my holidays is coming in 2 weeks! This blog is very boring. Guess I’d better get some sleep now.
It’s great to be able to blog again! It’ll take a while for me to get this blog looking for presentaable, but at the moment, at least I can whinge to my hears content!
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Great to have such nice sunny spring weather today. Went grocery shopping with Dad and cleaned up the house as I just can’t stand the house not being cleaned after visitors have visted! Wanted to go down to the park to use the basketball courts to shoot some hoops, but there were too many kids around already! :(Â So I bounced myself back home to mop.
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Back to work in the morning. Gotta ask dad to give me a ride to work, as no buses or trams are up at 5:30am. I can’t whinge as it was my idea to put mods on my car. Can’t wait for my car to come back. Let’s hope the mods I ordered will put a grin on my face!
So don’t feel like going to work - another 4 more 12 hour shifts to go. I really don’t know how I’ve been at this job for over a year now. It’s starting to take it’s toll on me physically and mentally. So glad my holiday is coming up in 3 weeks!
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Time to go to bed now!  This past weekend I was feeling rather blue. It’s cleared up a bit after having a chat with K on Sunday. Just not really happy with where I am in life at the moment. What I need to do is to take a grasp and figure out where I want to go in life.
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On a side note, how many SMS’es to a person in the space of a few days would constitute stalking? And no, I don’t stalk!
Back to blogging again!